This weekend I was in London with 6 other girls, so its safe to say I was way off plan all weekend! It was worth every second though! I did weigh myself on Friday morning before I left and I was down another pound. Usually I would hop on the scales as soon as I get back and check again twice a day and one of two things happens; it scares me into getting back on track straight away, or it gives me a false sense of security and it takes me a while to find my groove. This time I decided I am not going to weigh myself until my scheduled weigh in day saturday morning. Full confession, I got back on Sunday evening and only just got back to tracking this morning, but I am back at it and have nothing to throw me off this week at all.
I needed to see the above this week though. The goals I set myself up for this year, well to say they aren't going well would be an understatement. I am actively fulfilling only 2 of my 8 goals and well the rest I am failing spectacularly. BUT (and that is a big but) its early days and I won't give up. I believe that one of the goals is more crucial than the others, and will be the key to achieving the rest. Mastering the work/life balance. I am working too many hours and getting myself too stressed out over things that are beyond my control. I have a bit of an issue with anxiety, for the past 10 years or so its been something that comes up every now and then. I'm a worrier, plain and simple! So I need to start pulling myself back a bit and admitting there is only so much I can do and I need to look after myself a bit more.
My alarm goes off every morning and this is how I feel. I have been leaving for work too early to actually fit in a run, but even when my alarm goes off I have to snooze for 20 more minutes before I can drag myself out of bed. And then when I get home in the evening I feel wide awake. So the plan is over the next 2 weeks start to wean myself out of the habit of starting work early and finishing late. I want to be back at the gym by february and well into a new training plan and have chosen/booked my next half marathon. I won't let January be wasted!
Thanks for posting that comment about resolutions. Fits my thoughts exactly. I don't really make New Year's resolutions because I always have a few things I want/need to accomplish but it's hard not to feel the urge to start the new year with lots of "new". This year was the first time when I tried to consciously not fall into the trap. I know that the first year of January is billing for the end of the quarter in work and because of the holidays, that usually means we have at least one, if not two days less to do the normal quarter-end amount of work in. On top of that I had invited 12 people to my place on 10th January (a little extra celebration for those who couldn't make it to my birthday party at the beginning of December) and then just for kicks, life threw an exam at me on the same day. So I knew nothing could possibly happen before the 10th anyway. And I still found myself constantly struggling with thoughts of all the things I should be doing and having to remind myself that the year is longer than just the first week of it! I picked myself last weekend and walked 10km (first time I have done that for a long time and wow, it hurt by the end of it) - but I am determined to travel back to Dublin to do the mini-marathon this year so this is when it has to start.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your goal for the next two weeks. It's a bit like WW, really, always keeping your eye on the next Silver 7, the next 10% (or however it is they're doing it now, I haven't been for a very long time - another one to get back to this year).
God your start to 2015 sounds as mental as mine! So many people go all gung ho on resolutions in January and then taper off. We need to look at our goals as more long terms and just because you have a rocky start its no reason to give up! Focus on the goals and we will get there no matter what!
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