This weekend I was in London with 6 other girls, so its safe to say I was way off plan all weekend! It was worth every second though! I did weigh myself on Friday morning before I left and I was down another pound. Usually I would hop on the scales as soon as I get back and check again twice a day and one of two things happens; it scares me into getting back on track straight away, or it gives me a false sense of security and it takes me a while to find my groove. This time I decided I am not going to weigh myself until my scheduled weigh in day saturday morning. Full confession, I got back on Sunday evening and only just got back to tracking this morning, but I am back at it and have nothing to throw me off this week at all.
I needed to see the above this week though. The goals I set myself up for this year, well to say they aren't going well would be an understatement. I am actively fulfilling only 2 of my 8 goals and well the rest I am failing spectacularly. BUT (and that is a big but) its early days and I won't give up. I believe that one of the goals is more crucial than the others, and will be the key to achieving the rest. Mastering the work/life balance. I am working too many hours and getting myself too stressed out over things that are beyond my control. I have a bit of an issue with anxiety, for the past 10 years or so its been something that comes up every now and then. I'm a worrier, plain and simple! So I need to start pulling myself back a bit and admitting there is only so much I can do and I need to look after myself a bit more.
My alarm goes off every morning and this is how I feel. I have been leaving for work too early to actually fit in a run, but even when my alarm goes off I have to snooze for 20 more minutes before I can drag myself out of bed. And then when I get home in the evening I feel wide awake. So the plan is over the next 2 weeks start to wean myself out of the habit of starting work early and finishing late. I want to be back at the gym by february and well into a new training plan and have chosen/booked my next half marathon. I won't let January be wasted!