I've been meaning to post an update since my last recipe post, but when that Monday morning hit I had a bad feeling. I have no idea why but the week was starting with a struggle. I felt ok about my food though, I still bought enough tuna and salad for healthy lunches all week and had my meals planned out for the week. That afternoon I had a chocolate bar - and I didn't track it. That was the beginning of the end.
I rationalised it....the start of the week....won't cause much damage....but I should have known better. The chocolate bar was just a symptom of the problem. I wasn't myself. I don't know why but I was feeling down and it go worse as the week went on. I wasn't sleeping well and I felt like everything was on top of me! It all came to a head on Monday when I just gave up trying to stay on track and went out for a 'cheat lunch'. It consisted of an amazing chicken and bacon triple decker sandwich with a bag of crisps, followed by a chocolate bar in the afternoon.
I gave in to my feelings and didn't track a single thing until Sunday morning. I had Eddie Rockets, lots of chocolate, Ice Cream, a breakfast bagel and just tried to find a way to feel myself again. I knew the answers weren't in the food I was eating, but my mind wasn't in the right place and trying to stay on track and failing would not have helped my mood.
I had a bad week, but not the worse. Despite all the bad I still went running and had a few healthy meals in between. The most important thing I did was not feel guilty about it. That helped me find my way back. Guilt has a funny way of holding you back and I didn't want to go there. I woke up on Sunday morning ready for a new week and I don't think I'd have gotten there without letting go of the guilt.